My birthdays coming up and soon after is Lil Man's.Hard to believe this year has gone by so fast.It was a really long hard time before my Lil man came.Since then it's been wonderful having him here.Not easy by any means but having him here is such a joy I never expected.I'll be 21 the 30Th.I can't believe it 21 and a mom.That wasn't ever the plan but the best things out of life are usually not I think.I never had it easy growing up.That's never an excuse just a fact.Things were never handed to me.I worked for anything I got.I was forced to grow up fast and make do with what life had given me.I wouldn't change any of it but I wish and strive for so much more for my baby.I want to protect him and let him always know that I love him and no matter what he does I'll always be there to help him through it.Everything I do now is for him.I worry and pray that he'll know how much I tried for him.That every thought,and decision was made with his happiness in mind.I try to enjoy every moment we have together and I want him to have a happy normal child hood.I know things can't always be perfect or turn out how you wish but I have the most beautiful little boy so I think my life has turned out better then I could have wished.Me and him are a family and we will get through anything life throws our way.I wake up ever morning with a smiling face and how I love that face :) How I love my baby boy!!!